Well, I just got home from youth and I really have no idea what to think of small groups. I struggled last year, but I got through it alright just by reading from the sheets that Neil gave me. This year I share a group with another leader, and I find it really hard. First I was with Rocky in his group, and I just found it hard to know what to say and how to be a leader when he's taking charge. Not that I dislike not being the one talking. I just felt useless and like I wasn't needed. There were also only 3 to 6 teens in the group, so I decided maybe I should switch to a bigger group. I did so tonight after talking it over a little with Brett and Glen.

Glen's group has more people in it so it wasn't quite as bad, but I still don't feel like I'm a decent leader. I have the feeling that I'm not really needed and I don't know how I would be able to cope on my own. I just can't imagine myself coming up with all the things that I've heard Glen and Rocky come up with. I'd be alright asking questions, but otherwise I don't think I could get through it. I know I shouldn't feel down about this. I'm much better with hanging out with the teens the rest of the night and I'm going to make an effort to get together with them through the week for lunch and stuff. I guess I'll talk this over with Glen on Sunday and tell him the way I feel. See if he has any advice and I can also keep doing what I've been doing and just add some comments to what he's saying. And if anyone else has advice I'd love to hear it.